I am slowly coming to the realization that a dream is something that one lives and not something that one pursues. In working towards making pictures that matter, I find fulfillment and joy interspersed between challenges and disappointments en route.
The print sales and the publication of my photos in a soon-to-be more widely circulated book are surely milestones that I’ll treasure. But I’ve learned to stop waiting for myself to arrive. A state which implies that I’ve attained some significant and measurable form of success. I now consider this photographic pilgrimage that I am on as the dream, instead of what lies at the end of it.
Life definitely threw me a couple of haymakers that knocked me down this past year. And for a while, I thought I wouldn’t be able to dust myself off and get back up. Apparently, I overestimated my capacity to quit when faced with daunting odds. It’s either that or I’m underestimating my own stupidity.
The future is a minefield of uncertainty, but I now know better than to rush towards the shimmering mirage in the distance. I was never one for making plans, but that doesn’t mean that I won’t carefully choose my path. I simply want to be present as I go through the process of working on my dream; not just so that I can adapt to change, but so that I can define this undertaking more eloquently by experiencing its joys and pains.
I find myself both fortunate and thankful at the end of this year. I am still on this journey, finding benefactors and companions whenever I need it. This blog has been a constant source of encouragement and inspiration, and has kept me going through the darker days. I hope you will not tire of reading my thoughts, given my tendency to ramble on.
And before I do, I would like to end this post with a quote from a movie that I still enjoy to this day.
“Change your stars and live a better life than I have.” – John Thatcher, A Knight’s Tale
I thank you, dear reader and friend, for helping me change mine.
A merry Christmas to one and all!